realization

Bismillahirrahmanirahim.

I've just realized something. I've been using a mixed of british and american english all this while! Sejak spelling bee haritu. Huhu, i'm not really proud of myself. It has been such a long time, i don't know, jurassic period maybe?, since i've read an english book. And then, to suddenly enter a spelling bee contest? Kill me!

Hoho.

Right now, i need inspiration.

I hate this feeling. Loneliness. Sadness. I guess i'm a dark person.

Owh Allah, help me. I'm in need. I know You set this challenge for me. But i need guidance from You, to overcome this.

Owh Allah, i know that everything You Do comes out from Love, because You are the Most Merciful, Most Beneficient. But why do i feel so weird?

Oh Allah...guide me to love You more than anything else, for i am just a servant, a lowly soul of ignorance.

I need love.
Tsk.